I woke up today feeling grateful. God has kept me all this year and it’s sad that I have just realized this in the wake of New Years Eve. I have been reflecting on changes I’d like to make. Some are more personal to share and some are small adjustments to help me become a better person. I have gone through so much this year.
My nine year relationship with my high school sweetheart ended. My family is having serious communication issues. I’ve experienced heart break after heart break, but there were also so many good things that have occurred that have kept me balanced. I got to go on so many trips. I feel more in touch with my friends. I got a new car that fell directly into my arms when I was desperate for a helping hand. God has kept me through all of this. He has made sure that despite of all of this his presence is still present. Even as I am breathing, even as I am typing this message. I just want to say thank you.
New Years Resolutions:
Staying healthy: You have followed me through my fitness journey. I have fallen off badly with this. I used to be so motivated to change my lifestyle by working out at least 4 times a week and eating right. The holidays and other circumstances have hindered me from continuing my journey this last month. I am going to commit to staying healthy this year, and of course I will keep you posted. (My feet look monstrous in this pic. LOL)
Prayer: I want to get back in touch with God. I used to be so faithful but some where along the way I have become more faithful to other things. Prayer is important. Meditation is a way to reflect on yourself. Maybe I will commit to morning prayer. Sometimes I am so tired by the time I get home that I fall asleep during my prayers. I need to find a method that works for me. I’m going to try to pray in the morning so that I have the energy to focus and be grateful for whatever the days brings me. I have had a long battle with religion and church. If you know my testimony you’ll know how I feel about religion. Despite my journey, God is STILL good.
These are my two major resolutions. I also have other minor changes I’d like to make. They are kind of funny.
- I want to change my nail color. I have worn red for the past 6 months. I have to find a new color. Any suggestions?
- I want to take my blog to the next level. Maybe by doing vlogs. I want to purchase a quality camera and editing software. Don’t worry it won’t take away from my writing. Writing is my passion. I just want to spice it up a little.
- I want to develop meaningful relationships. We don’t guard our hearts enough. This doesn’t mean that you can’t be kind to people, but I just want to be sure of people’s character before I start letting people in. Intimately and friendly, I want to make sure I develop a way to love people with out allowing myself to be drained.
I want to thank everyone for following my blog. I promise I’ll continue to develop and expand what I love. I’m ready for the challenge of achieving bigger and better things.